On August 12 or 13, 2004, I had been watching the Perseid meteor shower with my friends and children in a rural community on the outskirts of Houston, Texas. I was not drinking nor was I using any drugs. Things had slowed down after a few hours and everyone went into my home.
I walked back out into my front yard by myself. All the lights were still out from watching the meteor shower, and the only light was from the kitchen area of my house, which I could see behind the drapes. That's it... Other than that it was very dark outside.
Suddenly, these balls of light appeared (the "orbs" that so many people are photographing), they were the size of softballs and some were clear and some were opaque and many shades in between.
My first thought was that I had something on my glasses, some moisture that was causing a visual anomaly, and so I took my glasses off and began cleaning them with my shirt. As I did this, I noticed of course that I could still see the orbs and that it was not a smudge or something causing the effect.
My next thought was that I was having some sort of brain aneurysm... I mean, the balls of light were everywhere and were swirling around... I thought that it was a hallucination. But then I saw that the balls of light were literally illuminating an outbuilding that I was about 25' from. Imagine a thousand unseen children playing with flashlights... That is what it looked like as the lights shown on the walls of the building.
Okay, I know how this next part sounds. I know that it sounds crazy, and I have questioned my sanity many times since this, particularly with all that has followed. I may well be crazy, but I swear on my soul that I am telling the truth. I was a practicing attorney when this happened. I have given up the law, and given up most of what I owned (several homes, boats, other properties, etc.,) because this was the most important event of my life... And I want to understand it.
Suddenly, I knew that I was in the presence of god. I was an agnostic who was actually just a lazy atheist who did not feel like arguing with people about it. I knew that god was just an invention, and that everything could be explained scientifically.
In that moment, I knew absolutely that I was wrong. I knew that I was in the presence of god... And I felt so ashamed. I also felt this INTENSE love, something so strong and pure that it is difficult to describe, emanating from the presence... Pure love. Pure compassion. Pure adoration.
I began telling god that She/He (it seemed androgynous) had made a terrible mistake, that I was not worthy of this love that I was being showered with... I told god that I was a bad person and that I was maybe one of the worst people ever. I literally said "You must be lost. You have the wrong girl... You're at the wrong house..." and in hindsight, I cannot believe that I told god She/He was lost... But I think that She/He was a little amused by it, because there was a great tenderness and ultimate understanding and compassion in the voice that then said to me "I created you... I am you..."
Now that is an exact quote. I can relate the rest of what was said to me, but I cannot give an exact quote. I was told that I had come from the stars (or "out there") and that I would be "coming home" soon. I was also told that I had once been a part of all the love and lights that was surrounding me, and that I would be a part of it again.
Then something fell through the limbs of the oak tree behind me and I was startled (remember, I had been watching meteors earlier) and ran inside. When I realized that what I had heard was most likely an acorn I walked back outside but the lights were gone.
That was not the first supernatural event I have witnessed, but it was the first time that I could not just say "oh, that must have been my imagination"...and it was definitely the first in a long series of EXTREMELY bizarre events.
Listen to what you were told; it's the truth. We are divine creations with our own powerful energy source functioning in human bodies to learn how to use it properly.
I am 80 and it took me 78 years to learn that if we want god's help, all we have to do is ask for it and be basically good people; not perfect, but basically the kind of person that doesn't want to harm others. If you don't ask, you won't receive. The other big thing that is helpful is to know that the way we feel is totally able to be changed. If we focus on what we don't like, we will not feel good. If we focus on trying to feel the way we want to, we can improve. In other words, we create the way we feel, often unknowingly. Can u feel goose bumps? Then you can learn how to feel blissful. I think if we allow god to help us feel the way we want by asking for it and to practice deep relaxation and letting god assist in reprogramming us, we can become more loving, blissful people. An observant quiet mind is a great characteristic to develop.