Spiritual Journey

I'm 42 years old and was a LPN in a psychiatric hospital for a total of almost 10 year. During the years, I've heard the past stories about the field to some depth. One day my life took a turn and I was on the other end, as a patient. To my horror, I seen what the field was really like from a patient point of view. Incompetent to say the least.

I was misdiagnosed as psychics often are, based on 60-70 DSM's criteria and not modern day point of view. This led me to journey across the U.S.A. and Mexico to try and find myself that got lost in all of the paperwork and assumptions about who I was inside.

One thing I noticed is that when I started out, I had no idea where I was going or wanted to do about any of it.

As time went on, I ended up at Rusk Hospital in Texas. And then South Western Virginia and then Western State Virginia, each time I felt I wasn't alone in my despair, but couldn't place my finger on what I was feeling. I was abused through medications over objections that lessened my abilities as a psychic. This depressed me because I always relied on my inner resources to guide my spiritual paths.

Traveling was a blessing, as I knew it would be to me. Through all of the hospitals they found pieces of health information that was identified as Graves Disease when I came back home and things were reviewed. What a blessing to have the other hospitals care when my own hometown hospital where I once worked as a nurse, blew me off and discredited me.

Through all of this, I realized I had become more spiritual towards the past history of mental and it's patients, despite me taking a disability as a nurse. My awareness is very heightened for what people actually go through trying to tell their stories and get people to listen. Today, the field is a lot better than yesterday.

One thing I did notice and have to ask others is, I'm in tune to digital camera and sometimes see faces in the pictures. I don't think they're apparitions, it's more that the camera if bit mapping what it is picking up. I noticed that this started on the Historical Asylums pictures that I viewed on the Internet Forgotten Photography site.

I'm asking if anyone else notices the digital faces on the pictures because I believe faces are spiritual and are not ghostly apparitions.

Has anyone else ever seen just faces? And do you find they are more spiritual than apparitions?

What do they mean in a spiritual journey? I didn't notice them until I was ready to research and begin to change things in the mental health field.

I feel that it is a calling to follow through on reporting the abuses and to try to lobby for some much-needed changes. I'm on a lot of Online Support Teams such as Nami and the ACLU among a few others. And no one around me has ever said I was crazy. Sometimes others see the faces when I see them.

The faces are not evil, they bring a lot of peacefulness to me as if I'm guided and watched over. That's my feel from the entire thing. I usually see them more in digital cameras, than standard B&W or color.

Has anyone else had experiences with seeing faces along a spiritual journey?