Ocean Of Light Love Bliss

I was nineteen at the time. I was very depressed, so depressed I was praying to die. One night I am lying down on the floor in my living room. And all of a sudden, it was as if a part of me left me and was rising up. I was entirely aware of myself both on the floor and traveling somewhere that seemed like up, I was also aware that something was between the two aspects of me, somehow keeping 'us' together.

I am going up and then I hear something like music, but its not music, its something beyond music, so beautiful, indescribable, profound. And there was this amazing light with colours that I have never seen before, again I don't know how to describe them, but just experiencing this light and sound made me feel I so at peace.

At this point, I realize it is like I am naked, but it is nakedness without a body and of course without any sense of shame. Then I realize that I am not alone, that there are 'others' with me, and I can feel all this love from them. At the same time I realize that they are me and I am them but we are also individually ourselves. At this point, I realize that I am being 'clothed' in light, I become the light and now, I am an endless ocean of light, another worldly light like I've never known. I feel so full of love, and peace, and joy and bliss and I think it can't get any better.

Then I realize that I am still going 'higher' that I am approaching what I believed (in the moment) to be the 'god head'. And even though I don't have a body I have a sense of me humbling myself, as if I am bowing. It was as if I was bowing at the foot of something I didn't feel worthy to look at?

And then I hear myself speak, of course it was more like speaking in thoughts, and I say "I know I am not deserving yet, but please, please, please let me stay". And then just as I finished asking, fear came into my body. It was like my body didn't want me to leave. And at that moment I started coming back into my body, but as I was, I was given this message "you are not ready yet, but now you know".

That was 26 years ago and I have since had a lot of other experiences.

I've just begun a Squidoo lens that I am going to dedicate to telling these experiences.

If you are interested you can find it here:

http://www.squidoo.com/A-Trip-Through-An-Alien-Mind

I've also got a site called Positive Mind States that is about understanding the mind and brain as it relates to 'higher functions'. For example how achieving certain brainwave states will trigger certain neurotransmitters which will cause transcendence ie Serotonin.

You can find it here: http://www.positivemindstates.com