After experiencing the intense heartache that comes with unrequited love, many people said to me that I had 'put up barriers' and that I was 'blocking love'. I didn't really understand what they meant, I didn't feel blocked. How could I be putting up blocks without meaning to?
Months later I got involved with a new man. The relationship lacked a connection for me and it felt as if I was cut off from a part of myself, but I thought nothing of it. I began to grow increasingly unhappy and frustrated that I couldn't seem to feel anything. Then this new man dropped a bombshell on me... I won't go into the details but this revelation left me feeling deceived and betrayed.
I struggled for nights on end trying to come to terms with this news when one night I woke up. But not fully and it felt like thoughts were being projected into my head. I was told that this new man came into my life to teach me a life lesson and to show me what life is like when you block love. I felt a weird feeling in my chest and the only way I can describe it is that my heart soared with this news and I just knew it to be true.
Over the next few days I had this nagging feeling in my stomach like there was something I had to do, I couldn't put my finger on it, I didn't know what the feeling was trying to tell me until I started meditating. The thought projection happened again and I knew I had to forgive him. I felt a roaring in my ears and a lightness in my heart.
A couple of months down the road, I have started to come back to my old self again and be happy as I once was. I feel like something has changed but it only hit home when my homeopath said to me that she could no longer get a closed off vibe from me.
I'm still confused as to how I blocked myself off in the first place. I didn't know that I could construct an invisible barrier around my heart. I also think its interesting that forgiveness was the key to lifting the block but I don't understand how forgiving the new man could unblock the block caused by the man before? But maybe I inadvertently forgave him too... Who knows... The mind boggles!
I would be very interested to hear if anyone else has had a similar experience to mine and could maybe shine some light on the issue.
Also, lately my heart feels like something is pressing down on it. Does anyone know what could be causing this? Is it healing? I have also been getting really bad headaches where it feels like my third eye chakra is bursting and energy is streaming out of it. Does anyone know what this means?
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