My Spiritual Experience

Sharon,

Your experience sounds a lot like what my lady friend indentifies as meditating. Reaching inward into a void where "the mind is quiet."

In my experience, I do something like that to escape a migraine, or terrible anxiety, and frequently takes hours to achieve.

In 1983 I think I sustained an injury at work one evening. I was cleaning underneath a catwalk and when I tried to stand up straight, I hit the left side of my head on the bottom of a steel pipe hand rail and it hurt like ****. About a year after this I woke up at home around noon with a severe headache. It felt like someone hit me in the head with a cast iron skillet as hard as they could.

Years later I came home from work with a monsterous migraine, and I was really suffering. I recalled watching a martial arts demonstration. The Chinese master had learned to find and focus his "chi," then he could move that force through out his body, like into one of his hands. He used that force to effectively disable his American opponent by simply grabbing his opponents hand.

That night all I could think about was getting outside of my body I was hurting so badly. I focused at a point on my abdomen looking for the center of my life force, soul, chi, spirit (it doesn't matter to me what you want to call it) and once I found it I started concentrating on moving it up through my body. I could actually feel it. I kept moving it until it was at the very top of my skull. Then something happened that kind of surprised me. I had my eyes closed, but my chi was above my head, and I could look down and see myself.

I just sat and waited; having escaped the pain, I was in no hurry to go back down into my body.

While moving my chi back down into my head, I let it rest on the inside of my skull very near the top. Nearly all of the pain I had been feeling was greatly diminished. I could roll over and go to sleep, and that's exactly what I did.

Since then, I've been in two more automobile accidents and wasn't wearing a seat belt either time, and struck my head each time on the left side, in the exact same spot. The second of these two accidents the car was airborne twice. All the while I was getting thrown around like a rag doll. After that last accident, I ALWAYS wear a seat belt!

I still experience a lot of anxiety, and the headaches have been continuous since 1984. But I have never tried moving my chi out of my body again.

It may be pure fantasy, but some one suggested that if my spirit/soul was out of my body, my body would be left unprotected allowing some other "being" (demon) to enter my body. This subject has never been mentioned in the Bible.

Can't be too careful, so I've never done that again. 😊

Though I tend to have a lot of 'medium' type experiences (ghosts, etc) that seems to have blossomed in my life the past 6 years or so... I have also had some pleasant experiences that I have been VERY grateful for. A sort of Heavenly 'reprieve' from the more obscure ones I have alot. 😨

One such pleasant experience was at the grocery store! Kids in school, so off to do errands went I; and at the grocery store I'd turned into a aisle that no one was is at the moment. I suddenly felt 'empty' (like you'd mentioned), no fears, stress, worries, lists of things to do in my head; not a thing. How nice! It made such an impression that I didn't want to move and have it all end! I knew that's what it would be like for my soul to be in Heaven. Not all tied down in nerves and emotions like I am in daily life.

It was probably only a few seconds, but I recall it very vividly! I haven' tried to 'find' that place again... I just appreciate that I got to feel that freedom of physical oppressions for the moments I did! ❤

Yeah, I had some of those peaceful moments, although I'm not capable of emptying my consciousness any time at will. I concluded that thoughts happen in time (consistency: one thought concludes the another) and time means determinism. To escape determinism is to accept it. So going beyond thought is something that cannot be described. And also it seems a sort of dualism to exist: you want to clear your mind, but you can't achieve it by wanting, only by getting aware the will. There will come another thought and you have to become aware of that too, you need to climb up on it. So when you want clear your mind, you have too be aware of the judgment you make on your current status. Even by reading this you raise opinions. You unconsciuosly try ti hold onto your ideas, belifes, attitudes. But seeking let those go is also an attitude! Thoughts are obligatory in nature, such are these I write. Now to the dualism: when one wants to empty his mind, he has to not want it. And if not wanting turns into a thought, he should reply to it, with the negative. Insisting is never a solution. If one can't meditate, he should then let go of the urge. Spiritual evolution is also dualistic: it happens also in the world of space-time (determinism) and also in the world of free will (timelesness, unmanifested, indefinite). We have our ups and downs, and that's all I can tell.