I am a 31 years old factory worker from Australia, my younger years were full of trouble including drugs, jail and complete disrespect for myself and others. For the past 6 years, I had tried every type of scientific treatment (pills, therapy, hypnosis, etc) with no effect whatsoever, I was actually hospitalized with renal failure after trying to "end" my nagging negative thoughts. During this experience, 2 men appeared and told me "there is a plan for you". Then I could not see where they went, and I have never told anyone about that...
For years, I had try to stop my thoughts but never had success or ever believed I would. Then something happened one night, I was as usual, trying to ignore myself, when suddenly there was nothing to ignore. Now, I know this next bit will sound very far fetched but I'm hoping that others who have experienced similar situations will empathize with me on this one... Anyway, I grew, not only in height but in width, I became solid (in a sense) it is very hard to explain but it felt as if my soul/spirit was spreading outwards from my center, then I was able to see empty space, which upon inspection was not empty at all, it has a viscous almost water like appearance to me, I could feel it against my body as I moved through its space. I then became acutely "aware" of my own existence (as a brain and spirit being separate) and I could feel the existence of whatever I looked at, I felt a leaf's life (its warmth and needing to feel warmth), I felt the earth's existence and the direct connection it had to my own existence.
This extra perception has now lasted for 10 months, recently I have become aware that I now do not even hear that nagging voice anymore, in fact I can control it completely. I have absolutely no idea why this happened to me, I was never a "spiritual" guy and do not believe in religion. I am still trying to control this perception I know have, reading people's thoughts has become very distractive, although I am starting to control emotions I receive from others, all in all, I believe we all have these skills, if only that nagging voice would turn off for us.
Since the event, everyone involved in my life has told me how remarkable the change has been, but honestly I do not need to be told anymore, I can now feel what they feel. I am now a non drug user, don't drink, don't smoke etc. I have found that that state of NO mind can be achieved with only a seconds warm up. I would really love to hear from anyone experiencing this feeling as being the only "known" one gets very hard, as talking to people who do not understand is not only pointless and embarrassing, it is creating a label for myself that others can use.
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