It all started when I was little: I was raised Judeo-Christian. I was very devout as well. Went to church, prayed, worshipped him, etc. Stayed true to his word. But a lot of bad things hath happened in my life. I don't know if I can even list them on here, it is that grotesque... But I am 17 1/2 now. 16 years as a christian were living hell. I was full of anger as I aged. Full of hatred. My soul was so unbalanced and at conflict all the time. I lost my home in the recession of 2008. Prayed to god to save it but instead we lost it, my parents divorced and tore my family apart.
I eventually became a Norse Pagan. It came to me out of nowhere. My soul called for it. As I became it I felt so at peace with myself. No more conflicts of the soul, just peace. I had to HIDE it because if my mother found out, she would flip. So I hid it. My friend who was Wiccan at school gave me a Pentagram. So I wore that and when I got home my mother saw it and yelled at me to give it back. She said it was "satanic". When in reality it is not. So I never gave it back to my friend I just hid the necklace. She saw it again on my way to school [forgot to hide it inside my shirt as I was leaving] and she yelled at me again. I turned and said "Well it is my faith and I will not" as I slammed the door.
So I came home later to find a "Jesus Saves" book or mini bible or something so I was very angry and threw it to the floor because my mother did not respect my beliefs. I was ticked off at the moment so I didn't care. My mom comes down to my "room" and finds it on the floor and she yells and said, "we raised you to believe in Jesus!"
I said in return, "Just because that is so does not mean it is my TRUE path. You do not choose my path for me."
Well she got very angry. I would stay down in my "room" and they would leave me behind when they go out to eat. I was left out of everything because of my faith, I was hiding out in my room and when it is time to eat there would be barely any food. I was yelled at for cooking food so I couldn't eat the canned foods. So I snuck to the freezer and took out some raw organic ground beef and defrosted it and ate it raw. Tasted good too.
Things were worsening so I saved up some cash and eventually ran away from home. It was bitterly cold and raining heavily hard. I prayed to Odin and his wife Frigga to protect me from anything out there that would cause harm. (This was before I was a Shaman) So I hath done that and went out. I was gone for 7 hours and traveled 10 miles up large hills and into the woods. I used my pendulum to point me what direction I was going to. I stayed on this little pavilion thing, was so cold... So I prayed to Odin to make a car stop and pick me up. And several cars hath past and one did. It was an elderly man on his way to work. So he drove me to town and I was stuck there until I needed to be found. So I went to this elderly clinic place to stay and I eventually called my mother. So she picked me up and all and went home and I was exhausted and sore.
I am going to have to skip a lot because this would be so long.
So I am living with my father now and he accepts my faith and spirituality. I was pondering and felt extremely connected to the Egyptian Gods as I was to the Norse. So I did some work with that. Also I have a connection with the Mayans and Native Americans but not hath yet explored that region of my soul yet.
So I learned to become self dependant when it comes to "faiths". As I said am of the Left Hand Path that means I am not submitting or getting on my knees and worshipping a deity. I.e servanthood. I respect them, they respect me back. [Mutual respect] I can "pray" to them as a form of communication.
I started to astral travel to many realms as well and met my spirit animal whom is a White Owl. (Known for seeing the evil in people when others are blinded by them and for wisdom and knowledge). I got to know some of my past lives as well. An enthralling experience.
The Gods have helped me get up on my feet and, and they also gave me my true lover whom I am happy with.
So it is time to spiritually advance more and more.
Again, sorry of the ending seemed so rushed I did not want to type so much.
I believe everyone has their own path. Whether it be christianity, paganism, satanism, atheism, or whatever. It all contributes to the balance of the universe anyways. No one should force or try to convert anyone. There is no one true path. Thine true path is your own.
Blessed be.
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