I am male. I have been trying to get answers to over a million spiritual experiences I have had from childhood, it took another turn about 7 years ago AND as I grow my experiences become intense. I am almost still very confused about it all, however almost 20 pastors in all have confronted, prophesied and warned me about God wanting to use me.
I am not the type that likes to go to church always but in my heart from early age, I have always fear God so much that it is very difficult for me to do anything bad/evil in secret, I also have always told people to love one another and not destroy the good of another.
Almost everybody's pain seem to be mine- if anyone falls, I feel it in me. When I watch films on TV tears drop down my eyes without me able to control it during emotional scenes like agony, poverty, pain etc. I pity and help people when its not my business or concern. My being honest to a fault has in the past brought calamity and poverty to me but I am beginning to be rich even without working for money.
I am a Christian from a Christian home too. My grandfather is a pastor and my father is a pastor as well.
I was earlier in a forum where they were talking about astral travel, in the end I discovered that they were not directing anything to Jesus Christ so I stopped. This site seem to be better because I have seen stories about Christ which is virtually my total experience.
I would like someone to please explain some things to me, someone who must have experienced what I have.
MY EXPERIENCES IN A NUTSHELL:
I had a vision about the second coming of Christ where the world was destroyed by fire, sky turned red with fire and great smoke- I saw a warship in the sky that seem not to have an end. The earth was flat- no cars no houses such that not a stone was on top each other as I was later shown in the bible that Jesus said. It started with me getting up from a grave then I began to see many pastors and people (black/white) they have healed. Girls and men in club took off their shoes and ran for their lives. Fire killed everyone at my back and front, when it was clear that I would die, I knelt down and began to say "God forgive of my sins- have mercy upon me for I have sin against you". This was repeated several times with tears (cry) in my eyes. I kept begging seriously, the begging was so serious because I was going to die but instead I woke up. However, what actually prompted me to kneel down and beg seriously for forgiveness in the vision was when I looked up and saw men in white horses appearing from nowhere in the sky to form a round circle for someone who was to appear in the middle like a king but before he appeared, I found myself saying "so it is true - the second coming of Christ" then out of great fear I stopped looking and felt on my kneels to ask for forgiveness.
Three days after that dream, I saw myself bathing naked in front of a church, people were passing by on the street and wondering if I have gone mad. After that day I began to see things. A door appeared to me in a trance and stayed for about 5 minutes or so, it appears like olden days door made of mud. It was simply an entrance one can pass through but like very old mud house front entrance. I asked pastors what it means but no one could give me answer. One year later, after I attended a night crusade of redeem church I bought a calendar from one of the women selling Christian books. The calendar was about 100 names of God. I hanged it in my room when I got home, few days later I was sitting down when my eyes just sighted one of the 100 names of God listed in the calendar- the name was "The door". Then the memories of the door that appeared a year ago came back to me then my inner said that is the answer. I jumped up and ran out surprised, saying to myself "so the door I saw was Jesus" because he called himself 'the door'. I became disappointed that the pastors could not give answers.
From then on, I began to see spirits. Evil spirits, evil creatures- things that have human faces but body of beasts like dogs and lion, witches, big size human about three times wider/taller than we on earth, occult people having meeting, astral travel I have been experiencing from birth took another turn and become intense and almost daily. But I see myself fighting these spirits, they are always after human on earth while something reveals them to me to fight them.
BUT there was something else- The name "Jesus" was always being used to fight these spirits and creatures by me without knowing it. It is as if someone else suddenly came inside me and began to act as he wants while my physical body would just watch and respond. It appears as if I am two different persons. When am sleeping, a spirit or so inside me will suddenly wake up and drift me into trance then I will begin to see spirits, fighting them by saying "I rebuke you in the name of Jesus". It happens mostly when someone sleeps by my side or when I sleep in people's home. Something takes me to midst of evil gathering and spirits. I hear and see them but in most cases they can not see me but can feel my presence sometimes.
My astral travel is another thing entirely very different from what I have seen people experience. In my astral travel which I prefer to call spiritual travel, I am usually 100% conscious that my body is somewhere sleeping. I go up and down to people houses to heal them of their sicknesses by saying "God has sent me to heal you or heal someone here". I even tell them "do not be afraid- I am here in form of a spirit- God has sent me to heal you of your ailment".
Even today, September 29, 2010 my spirit got out of my body to pray for a friend of mine in London, UK. I even told him that God has sent me to pray for him but somehow his friend who was present distracted the prayer and my spirit returned back to my body.
People see me in their dreams praying for them and casting out spirits that come to sleep with them at night. If anyone sleeps in my home just because he or she could not go home that late, the person must surely have a dream about fighting someone who has been a barrier to their life or delivered from some kind of sickness or dream about me or dream about me building a church or becoming a great man of God and so on.
All these I really still do not understand. But I have started going to church and from nowhere something has began to direct my behaviors like jealousy, hatred, backstabbing etc to good behavior and love for all man kind to the extend that I have began to tell people to practice what I call "the tradition of Christ" without knowing it. Pastors see me and say there is something very great inside me that my heart is as pure as snow and God want to use me to raise the dead, heal the sick, open blind eyes and I will be known by all nations of the world.
My problem remains that I do not understand any of these things I experience. As a matter of fact, I am not interested in what pastors tell me- now they say God is saying He has become impatient and I am being stubborn. I have a very funny computer knowledge such that I am able to build web sites, invent and create ideas, do web mastering without any previous tutorials from anyone or any school. People end up calling me a witch, they wonder how I learn things without being taught. I did not attend university but I found myself gaining knowledge and becoming versatile without learning.
My experiences are endless, I also hear a voice that sounds like thunder in trance- men that appear to be prophet kneel and hear the voice. After the voice has given a message, the men would say "we are grateful for hearing this message in Jesus name" then my spirit will come back to my body. This usually happen when am just sitting on my bed not sleeping, something like a mighty breeze would come and drift me into spiritual realm. It is usually very frightening to me but I have learned to let it go by weakening my physical body until m spirits separate from it.
Sometimes when I am in my room, a sound like roaring breeze would come and weaken me until my spirit separates from my body then drift me into spiritual realm, at this time I will begin to hear voice of someone I know who is very distant from me. It is usually a pastor or a servant of God- while am listening something will begin to minister to me saying this servant of God is either fake or real.
I NEED TO STOP HERE.
PLEASE IS THERE ANYONE WHO UNDERSTAND THESE THINGS, I AM VERY VERY WORRIED NOW BECAUSE PASTORS ARE TELLING ME TO GO AND FAST FOR MAYBE 40DAYS AND 40 NIGHTS, THAT GOD WANTS ME TO WORK FOR HIM AS A PROPHET AND HEALER. I AM REALLY SCARED AND I LOVE MY PRIVACY.
MY QUESTION IS: IS IT COMPULSORY THAT I BECOME A PROPHET OR SERVANT OF GOD, CAN'T I CONTINUE TO LIVE MY LIFE LIKE NORMAL PERSON? WILL GOD PUNISH ME IF I CONTINUE TO LIVE LIKE EVERYBODY INSTEAD OF TAKING STEPS TO BECOME A PROPHET OR PASTOR?
Thank you for listening,
Emmanuel Martins.
Most people's spiritual senses are quite underdeveloped. But there are some in society that just extraordinary spiritual sense, even if they haven't done anything to improve it. And I'd say there are multiple factors which determines this. One is the kinds of ancestors you've had. Another is the type of people/group you spend time with, and the overall actions of your own self as well.
I think that we are currently living in an abnormal world, where things are unnatural. Just think about it. Almost every major religious scriptures says that God is a God of benevolence and love, and yet, there is suffering all over this world. So if God really exists and is one of love, then why is there so much suffering and pain? I'd say that it's because God truly and deeply loves us as his own children.
Have you ever thought of God as a parent before? I think it's the lack of recognition of God as a parent that stops people from answering this question. This may not sound like it makes sense, but it really does. Let's say there is a person that was very successful in life, due to his effort and devotion. Furthermore, he was also a very morally good person. Let's say that he the type of person we can call the "Ideal" person.
Then that person decides to have a child. What do you think he would want for the child? He'd likely want his child to inherit the good qualities of himself, and grow up to become like himself. This is basically the same with God. God is our parent, and he/she as a perfect being wanted us humans to inherit God's qualities. But imagine if God made it so that all humans always followed his orders no matter what. It would basically be like commanding a bunch of robots, or like handling artificial intelligence. This is why God gave us free will.
God wants us to be like himself with our own will. And so he/she created us in his/her own image, with free will. Also, have you ever wondered why God created female and male? That's because they were a part of God's properties. Just so you know, I do not hate gays or trans or lgbtq+. But if we look at how God created us as man and woman, due to his actions of creating us in his own image, I'd say being lgbtq+ is not something God wants.
In everything there is a figure of a male figure and a female figure. In animals, there is male and female. In plants there is stamen and pistil. In atoms and subatomic particles, there is positive charge and negative charge. And even things that reproduce asexually have some form of female and male figure. Furthermore, God made humanity the owners of the earth and the universe. So it's obvious that through the things we've made, we've affected the plants and animals in a way to cause abnormalities. For example, pollution, gmo, crossbreeding etc.
But overall, pretty much everything has a female type part and a male type part, including humans. Without 1 part, everything will break down and be ruined. This is an example of one of the qualities of God, duality. So the purpose of man a woman is for us to successfully come together to completely resemble God. Without 1, we cannot resemble God, which is why I believe we should not be lgbtq+. I'm just going to say again, I have no hate against anyone in lgbtq+. They are all still God's children, and deserve God's love and such.
Just because someone does something wrong doesn't mean God will hate them. God will simply dislike those such qualities, but not the people themselves.
Anyways moving on, why is it that God let's us suffer? Well, the first humans failed to accomplish their missions, which caused the fall. And according to most religious scriptures, it says they fell due to eating some fruits, which I believe is metaphoric. In the bible, it says that Adam and Eve covered their private parts right after they fell. Why would they cover their private parts, when their wrongdoings were done by their mouths and their hands?
Furthermore, it seriously doesn't make sense for humanity to go through so much suffering just because they ate some fruits which they weren't supposed to. One thing that can make such thing happen is if the holy lineage of God was broken.
In other words, the real fall was actually due to illicit sexual love/relationships. Eve was tempted by Lucifer and "ate the fruit", causing her lineage to be taken by Lucifer, the archangel/satan. Then Eve, with the lineage of Satan did it with Adam, causing Adam to also lose his lineage. Now all the humans were taken away in the domain of Satan. This is worth the thousands of years of suffering of humanity. The loss of God's full lineage.
And so, I believe human history was basically just a part of the process of restoring our original lineage and original selves. And God could not interfere. Why couldn't he interfere? If he had interfered, and if he just saves us all without reason, then we'd never become the owners of ourselves. We'd never be qualified to be the owners of the creation which God wanted us to become. In some parts of the bible, it said that God said 3 things. "be fruitful", "multiply", and "have dominion and care of the universe".
Being fruitful means to perfect ourselves and unite our mind and body centred on God. Multiply means to multiply human kind, and create a family. And expand the family to a tribe, to a nation and to a world. And the third quote is to literally just have great dominion and care over the world. Human kind was meant to be the owners of creation, like God. And we can't do that if he just interferes and does the work for us. The only possible way he can interfere is if we create the conditions for him to be able to help.
This is why prayer can allow God to give messages or help in some way. It's basically like a trade system. You are investing your time and effort, and in trade, you get God's help. And his help is equal to how great the condition made was. But it's much more complicating that this. As I mentioned before, there are many factors as to why some are very spiritually awakened why some aren't.
I think people are affected through ancestors (heredity), the group you are with (collective), and your own actions (individual). For example, Noah cursed his son, Ham and his descendants, due to Ham's mistake. I guess that's a case of both hereditary and collective effect. Anyways, everything has a reason. Why might you have these special spiritual abilities? I don't know. Maybe your ancestors were largely involved with this type of stuff and did a lot of spiritual practices. Or maybe it's because of the church you attend. Or maybe it's because of your efforts. Or maybe it's all of those reasons combined.
So what I'm trying to say here is that you weren't just randomly chosen by God to have all these spiritual experiences or this awakening or whatever. It just turns out that you were born with these factors, and created these factors as you lived. If you really were chosen by God to do a very special mission, then you'd know, and you'd probably have been given a clear message from God.
But even so, I'd definitely recommend you to do good and use these abilities to help others. Just try your best to live not self centred. Try to live for the sake of others. Also, considering you have these abilities, I'd recommend you to just sincerely pray to God, and try to know him better. Try to love him and comfort him. God is definitely in pain, seeing his children suffer for thousands of years. He is also in pain, seeing that some of his children even regard him as a fantasy, or as a non existent being. Furthermore, I recommend you to pray really really hard to ask for truth. The bible isn't all there is to the truth.
You're probably aware that you still have so many questions unanswered. Best way to get the proper answers is to just sincerely pray to God with the most effort. Do it with good intent and live a life of love and prayer. And you may find answers.
What I recommend not doing is doing bad deeds. What you do will come back at you. Do good and good will follow. Do bad and bad will follow.
As for Jesus Christ, he will not come from the clouds and save those who simply believe in him. He won't even come down from the clouds. Jesus will come in the flesh, like a "thief in the night". The bible says that the 2nd coming will come quietly. But at the same time, it says that everyone will know of the second coming. I'd say it means that Jesus will come again as another person. No one will know that he has come, until he does his work and bears great fruits.
In that sense, a majority of the world will know that the 2nd coming has come. Not in a literal sense, where Jesus will really come down from the clouds. Jesus in the bible said that there will be a lot of false prophets and false messiahs. He said that we will know them by their fruits. He also said that there will be the "lawless one". Or the "man of lawlessness". He said there will be the "antichrist". And in my opinion, he is not talking about specific people or 1 specific person. The antichrist is the people that go against Christ. There will also be many false prophets and false messiahs. As for the lawless one, I think it means a certain ideology.
The bible verses acts as if it's a person. It says "shall exalt himself and magnify himself above every god, and shall speak astonishing things against the God of Gods". It says "above EVERY God". And I think we all know there is only 1 God. So I'd say God in this case doesn't literally mean God, but it means the tools of God, such as religion and things that will help restore human kind. And the "God of Gods" basically symbolises the real God.
Not only that, the bible says that the lawless one was also working with Satan even in the days of Jesus Christ (I don't remember these specific verses). And obviously, no man alive has ever lived that long. And there has never been any kind of mention of a certain entity or being that has the role of the "lawless one". The lawless one is also not Lucifer or the archangles, as it says that the lawless one is in work with Satan, in a way that the lawless one is seperate from Satan.
From this, the most fitting of the "man of lawlessness" would be a certain ideology that will nearly dominate the world, and go against God and the idea of a creator. For example, it could be like communism. The person who created communism (Karl Marx) made it with the intention of creating a utopian society. It's intention was good, but obviously communism would never have worked. It was uniting nations in a false manner of what was supposed to somehow create peace in the end. Something like that can be the "man of lawlessness".
Or who knows, maybe communism was the lawless one. Maybe the messiah has already arrived. What if the messiah already came and is doing his work already. Who knows. I guess we'll find out later. But whether or not he already came or not, I believe that as the bible said, he will come "like a thief in the night". But the fruits he will bear will eventually let the whole world know that he is the messiah, after a certain amount of time passes. I just don't think he will come on the clouds. Just as how John the baptist had the position of Elijah, I believe another man will come with the same position of Jesus.
I suggest you should try to ask God about this, and maybe you'll find an answer. I'm personally not very spiritually open of awoke. I did have some spiritual experiences, but not as nearly as much as you claim you have. But anyways, I hope this helped you.