Spiritual Awakening - Told Of Future Lover

By Farrah McFloyd
Date: 2010-02-16
Country: United States
State: Minnesota
Category: Guides / Angels / Helpers

I have had a number of experiences throughout my life that I didn't think much about because I have always accepted that a spiritual plane exists. However, I didn't have a spiritual practice or give it much attention.

Then, my life turned upside down. Problems in my marriage slowly surfaced over the course of a year, culminating in a confession by my husband that shocked and devastated me and ultimately ended the relationship. I was in a state of deep depression, anxiety, and despair at what was happening in my life. I had the life I had always wanted, had moved to a new area where I found amazing friends, a wonderful school for my children and my dream home, a place I wanted to live for the rest of my life. I couldn't understand why this was happening, why my life was unraveling. Then, things started to happen.

Two months after my marriage ended my father died. I hadn't spoken to him in several years as we had a strained and tumultuous relationship. This was not devastating to me because I had already grieved the loss of my father although it added to my depressive state.

Two days after my father died, I had an incredible and confusing experience. There was a friend of a friend (a man) I had started to get to know better recently. We have an amazing amount of things in common and I always enjoyed talking with him. I also found him very attractive but didn't think much of it because we were both married. But, I admit I had a little crush.

Well, the day of the experience, I felt very strongly that I would see him. A strong persistent feeling throughout the day which I was very confused about. Then, at home that evening (my husband hadn't moved out yet) this man stopped by our house to offer help with something I had mentioned to him a couple of days earlier. My husband answered the door and when I heard his voice I couldn't believe it. I had been thinking I would see him and then he showed up!

I walked into the room to say hello and when he turned to look at me it happened. When our eyes met my body began to swell with an incredible amount of warm energy. The best way I can describe it is filling up like a balloon from the top of my head to the tip of my toes. It was very, very intense yet loving. Then, I just "knew" he was the one. I was also given a message although I never heard a voice. The message was very clear, "Don't despair, you have done what you were supposed to do and now you get to be happy, and here he is".

I stood in my kitchen with this man and my husband trying to have a conversation while this amazing experience was happening to me. Then, at one point in the conversation when we caught eyes again, I saw a white flash of light coming from his eyes. This happened again as he went to leave and I walked him to his car, when we caught eyes just as he was getting in his car I saw another flash of white light in his eyes. It took me about an hour to calm down afterward. I was so confused because he is married, how could he be "the one"?

Many things have happened since then, unlikely coincidences such as amazing timing, running into him when I felt I would, I found out we have the same birthday, and many other things. Once I was at a friend's house who lives near him and I heard a voice say "go outside" so I did and he was right there walking by with his daughters!

While I feel elated by this experience and meeting him makes so many things in my life make sense, he is married and unavailable. Adding to my confusion is that I have precedent for this! When I was first getting to know my future husband (this was 13 years ago) I heard a voice whisper in my right ear, "You've met your husband". Which has a whole other story with it I won't go into here.

I don't know what to believe. But, this has started a journey for me of self-discovery and a spiritual quest to understand what happened, what it meant, how it could possibly happen and so many other things. I feel as though I was struck by Cupid's arrow that day. But, I am so scared it won't happen. This was a year and half ago now. I don't know what the experience would mean if it didn't and it seems so improbable that he would become available and even if he did it would be a complicated situation with ex-spouses, step-children, blending families and all that comes with it, which I am not sure I would otherwise choose.

I am simply waiting, waiting, waiting for him while adjusting to my new life as a divorced person. How long do I wait before I must accept that the experience wasn't what I thought? It is holding me back from getting involved with other people or even dating.

I would appreciate any comments. Thank you for reading.

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Timfaraos (131 posts)

10 years ago (2015-01-23)

Dear desparate sister, you talk about 'gut feeling'... Well how many times has your 'gut feeling' let you down! Let's get real here! How many thousands of dollars have you spent on psychics and mediums? You believe in 'spirit guides', but you don't believe in God... Like saying: I believe in the tooth fairy, but I don't believe in the easter bunny! If you believe in spirits, then why not in God and angels? Try praying to Him...it's for free! And stop filling the bank accounts of mediums! Let this poor man and his wife enjoy their family life together... God has other plans for you, maybe another man, or something. Trust God, you are his child, his creation... Remember him, and he will remember YOU! God bless. Timfaraos [at] gmail.com

James (10 stories) (151 posts)

14 years ago (2011-02-19)

Hello Farrah

Having read your original post and the comments put forth, this is a great discussion.

The only thing I wish to add is that I enjoyed your response enormously, you come across as a very strong individual (despite events in your life), your insight into the ethereal is quite refreshing to read.

I hope that you too find what your soul is truly destined for, it is right in front of you just reach out and seize it, never let go and feel the joy of the moment the rest of your wonderful life.

May the Light of Heavenly Father/Mother continue to shine on you, through you and with you forever more...

James

NaturalScience (3 stories) (110 posts)

14 years ago (2011-02-14)

Jealousy is made to keep people from sexual mismatch, i.e. Adultery. Not for keeping them from friendship on the human plane. If you feel this man to be a soulmate keep the relationship on the SOUL plane and don't let the SEX plane get into it. It would spoil it all. I have a medical colleague whom I am very fond of, I love his deep look and admire him to be a Karate master and Qi gong teacher, somehow it is a love thing but I never came to the idea of getting him into my arms or into my bed - I admire him and this admiration would leave me if I come to LUST for him. Thus I once got out of him whether he has a woman or not and he said he had one and I was SO glad, you can't imagine! So YOU be glad of that man having a woman for making kids and having orgasms together, and two nice kids from this marriage... It is good that way. He is not meant to be a LOVER and white light has nothing to do with CUPID. You perhaps now are to learn better how to discern lust from soul-relationship.

gysyblue (2 stories) (80 posts)

14 years ago (2011-02-13)

Farrah, he must be a part of your soul in some way. I'm wondering what became of things for you. I hope your life became enriched, and you have received happiness.

Farrah McFloyd (guest)

15 years ago (2010-04-16)

Thank you to all of you who posted comments. I appreciate it.

I know for certain that the devil is not talking to me. I don't believe in the devil or hell, the only hell that exists is Earth. I also believe I am aware enough and empowered enough to know if Earthbounds are trying to confuse me. I know when Earthbounds are near me and when my Guides and Angels are. It is like night and day. All of the experiences I have had with this man are angelic in nature.

I used an extremely gifted medium to talk with my Guides recently and they have reassured me that all the experiences I am having are for a reason - "no accident" they kept saying. They confirmed that this man and I will be together, that our souls have already agreed to be together for a duration in this lifetime and that I am to keep moving toward him as long as I feel the pull to do so. I agree it is confusing because of the marriage issue, but what I come up with is that everyone charts their own life here on Earth and we choose certain experiences to achieve growth in certain ways and this is just another way.

I am not saying I want to have an affair, I don't. I want him to be free so we can experience the depth of our spiritual connection free from guilt/fear/worry, etc. And, I believe my Guides and Source will guide me in the proper direction when the time is right.

This is the way Source has chosen to awaken me to my psychic gifts. And, a way to show me that real love is still coming into my life after all of the heartache and abuse I have suffered. In all the reading I have been doing about psychic phenomena what I come upon over and over is that to know something is real and not your imagination or a negative entity is to go with how you FEEL about the experience. Our Guides and Source use our emotions to tell us the truth in a situation. Listen, feel, be quiet, and feel again. Source will tell you the truth through your gut, your intuition, your feelings.

What my feelings are telling me is that this man is a kindred spirit, someone I have spent many lifetimes with before - learning, growing, and loving. We have chosen to come together again in this lifetime to learn further. He and I will be together and it will be wonderful. That is what I have been told by my Guides and I feel it to be true with everything I am and care about.

I feel sorry for anyone who believes that Earthbounds have the ability to trick you and play with you. If you are in that situation seek help and guidance so you can learn to discern what type of energy is near you so you can learn to control it, because we all have the ability to control it. We have the strength and will of Source within us to use and draw from. I also feel sorry for anyone who believes evil walks this Earth and controls people. It doesn't. People have evil within them and they allow evil to control them. Disallowing evil to have any reign over us comes from within and from Source, and evil has no power over Source.

The gifted medium I saw said what BeautifulDay said above - we do have to earn what we are allowed to experience. We must seek knowledge to gain knowledge, we must seek love to gain love, we must earn our psychic abilities through dedication and work, earning the right to possess these sacred gifts and knowledge. There is no room for evil, Earthbound, or negative energy in that pursuit other than to understand how to minimize it.

Best wishes and good luck to you all on your journey in this life.

invisible7 (guest)

15 years ago (2010-03-29)

Yes, I can relate to your experience.
There were so many earlier incidents that were strange but eventually made sense when I reconnected with this person I knew-- from when I was little.
Our feelings for each other were so intense. We knew it was wrong because we are both married. I cried to God, and questioned Him for allowing this to test my marriage which I had protected so much for the past 20 years and took so much pride.
I could not control what I felt. I went into depression not making sense of how such a spiritual connection, so beautiful be so wrong. I got obssessed calling on psychics after psychics and running into debt in the process. I could not sleep, could not eat that I dropped 10 lbs after a week of communication.
I thank God that at least, this man and I were countries apart, or I do not know what more damage could have done.
Eventually, we both agreed that we wanted to do the right thing; tried to stop communication, but again things would just pop up that made it continue; we then decided to continue the communication but keep it friendly. I am not sure if it is the best thing, but I have prayed over it in my weakness and ask the Holy Spirit to lead me.
Thought this is a test on my marriage, it has also brought me closer to God.
It became too much for me to bear, that I ran sobbing clinging to God. I have lifted this burden to HIM.
If He wants me to let go, it will happen; if this is for a reason beyond my human comprehension, it will be.
From this, what I get is that, God shook me hard where it hurt most to get me out of my complacency. Though I have always had a personal relationship with God, with this trial, I got to experience God's love in heights that I have never before.
In my heart right now, all my desire is to read God's Words and mature as a Christian. For the first time, I have surrendered my life to God without fear.
All things that happen to us, good and bad however we we may perceive them, is always for a learning experience.
When we run to God and not away from Him, it will turn the experience into a blessing.
Being human, I still have wishful thinking, I try to shake off. I still love the person, but it is more of a calm and caring love for a good friend.
Hope this helps you make some sense of your feelings and life.
God bless.

caymangirl8 (1 posts)

15 years ago (2010-03-22)

Hi. I read your story and felt I had to tell you about mine also. I totally believe your story. I believe that we can be told of a future lover/soulmate that will show up in our future. My experience began over 3 years ago. I got interested in Angels and spirit guides and read many books on the subjects. I started having experiences I never thought possible. I heard a voice tell me "He's coming." when I was in my shower one day. I had been praying to meet this man I was interested in and when I heard this voice, I ignored it, thinking someone in my house was calling me. When I asked nobody was calling me. I had many signs that were too incredible to ignore. I heard a song play one day out of the blue. I associate this particular song with meeting this man. Later I had confirmation of this song, by hearing a name in my head. When I looked it up, it was a person who worked on a movie called, "Music from another room." I couldn't believe it. I read the Celestine Prophecy and at the time I was reading about how to see energy all around you, I had that experience the next day. I saw the most beautiful colors swirling all around me and my house. I thought something was wrong with me. I asked God and my Angels if they were doing this could they please make it stop because I had to drive my kids to school. All my experiences have been good. I never felt scared. I believe they are all from God and his Divine helpers. I have way too many things I don't have space to tell about here. I might write a book on all these things. I have not met this man face to face yet. We have seen one another from a short distance, but have not got the chance to meet. I've had confirmation from my Angels that he saw me and will recognize me when the time is right. I'm just trying to have patience and I'm sure we'll come together when its the right time. I believe I was being prepared to meet him a few years in advance. I changed a lot of things in my life due to these experiences and they are all for the good. If you want to talk more, just email me at pkathleen20 [at] yahoo.com.

Well Wisher (guest)

15 years ago (2010-03-18)

Please stay away from this man (especially if he is still married with kids).

Satan (the devil) is tempting you...don't be fooled.

He wants you to commit a sin... Which ultimately is against your own soul and what you know is right.

This is a test from Allah / God.

Beware...beware...beware.

IAmTheUnison (4 posts)

15 years ago (2010-03-17)

It is my advice to you to be careful what mysterious voices tell you; especially when it comes down to matters of the heart.

You stated that it felt as though you had been struck by Cupid's arrow. Well, what most people don't know about Cupid is that he was more the Roman god of lust rather than love, and I personally have never trusted him or any other spirits like him.

You really do need to be careful listening to unseen voices that tell you about who is right for you and who isn't. The Spirit World is full of tricksters who delight in misleading and deceiving mortals in the attempt to wreak havoc in your day to day life. Also some spirits come from times and worlds where bigamy was and is common practice, and cannot understand this world's concept of single marriage or relationship between just one man or woman.

If possible I'd suggest getting the voices you're hearing to explain further what they mean, and most importantly find out if they are truly benign or not.

BeautifulDay (guest)

15 years ago (2010-03-04)

You have stated many experiences. But the verification comes when we put it into the hands of God by releasing requesting the best and highest. Many people have a few soul mates. But that is over rated. I once encountered a man where the light shown somewhat around him. We dated. But in the end it was only charming candy.
I believe if we had life experience before the payment is when I comprended his plight of depression when his mother died. I felt it with no knowledge of the event. I prayed for him which I believed it helped.

I have seen white light flash to the side of people but this had to do with their guide.

If we are on the path toward self development and living a Red path of understanding the best and highest will come. Sometimes we have to grow and earn it is what I have found.

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