Ever since I was a small boy I was filled with a sense of mystery. Fleeting impressions that if I could only remember, I would understand but that would have to wait.
As a young adult I had quickly grown unhappy with the role I was playing in life so I began searching for a remedy to a strange longing which had no name. It was encouraging to see back then that my quest for knowledge was greatly aided by what seemed like ordinary events. But there was nothing ordinary about what life had in store for me. Little did I understand that I was well underway on a spiritual journey. What had seemed ordinary had become magic and I was quickly becoming a mystery to myself.
It is said that life can be like a spiral on which we may experience new levels of learning and understanding leading to a deeper and deeper spiritual understanding.
In my quest for knowledge I have defeated many barriers. But the path of learning is not easy and people, I can say with absolute authority, are sometimes really not very bright. Perhaps the greatest task that any man will face in this life is one of self acceptance. Believing that we are perhaps much, much more than we might dare to dream possible. There is an old Toltec aphorism that states
The only failure in life is to fail to fight.
There is a great peace and a strength incomparable, knowing exactly what one is fighting for and knowing, also, that win or lose they gave it their absolute best.
There are so many paths of great learning. Christianity, Buddhism, Hare Krishna... The list would be extensive so not all paths are for everyone. The path I chose was the Warriors path. For me it seemed to make sense somehow and answered many questions I wanted to know. I think about the words of Jesus
Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.
I like to think that for whatever question we have there is, on reflection, the right answer. We are all so, so different. So I am never offended when a path seems to be different from mine because in the end there is just one life and one mystery which we are all an integral part of. My part in life is to be an impeccable Warrior, probably because that was the particular answer for my question. But then who really knows?
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Just reread your blog. I too am a warrior but maybe not quite the same way as you. I read your explanation of a warrior and it left me rather blank. There is a fight going on in this world all the time and I mean alllllll. It is a relentless war between Good and Evil. The Evil side play very dirty and are extremely destructive and are playing for keeps. The Good side fights back with weapons which are an anathema to the Evil side. LOVE being the principal Atomic Weapon. I am not very good at wielding this weapon but I am learning. It is very hard to do as otherwise everyone would be doing it. It is not getting upset when unjustly accused. I nearly always do. That is my first unguarded reaction. Then I think and pray and meditate on what Christ did and does. It would help to see Mel Gibson's movie the Passion or to tune into Father Robert Barron, Word on Fire and then I believe perfect freedom would be in your grasp. Hope that sounds understandable. Would love to hear from you on this website or at michaeljaffrayk [at] yahoo [at] .co.uk by email.