Someone at my high school recently passed away from bone cancer on February 22, 2009. For privacy purposes I'll say his name is Jason. During the school year I saw him frequently limping-he got his femur replaced with a metal rod and needed to use a cane-his way through the hallways and in the classroom but had never really got a chance to meet him or befriend him as I would've liked. I'm a senior in high school and he was a sophomore, so I never had a real class with him and therefore didn't get the opportunity to spend much time with him.
I decided that I would like to get to know him better and eventually become his friend, but I wanted make sure that I wasn't being overly sympathetic or come off as pitying him or anything like that. So I waited for an opportunity. One day he came into my classroom and said hello to the person sitting next to me and I took a chance. "What's this? No hello for me?" I joked lightly, he then cocked his head and looked at me for a moment before responding, "I don't even know you." Let's just say that wasn't what I was expecting him to say and I was pretty embarrassed with myself for it and quite disheartened by it.
Nevertheless I continued to pray for his health and family's well-being. I went to his web site one day and he had posted that 'the end is near'. I was really saddened by this and cried quietly for this person who I hardly knew. That night I lay in my bed after I'd prayed and started talking to Rick as if he were in the room with me. I told him that heaven awaited him, that God is waiting for him, that it was okay to go, he'd experience no more pain and all that sort of thing and also quoted any scripture I could remember.
A few days later he passed away. I found out that the exact time I had woken up that day was the same time that he had passed away. (Maybe just another coincidence). I thought to myself how happy he must be now that he is out of pain, yet I was still sad that I had never really gotten to know him.
Then two nights later I had a dream. I was at an ice rink (he was a hockey player) getting food at the concessions. Out of the corner of my eye I noticed that the person next to me had four pieces of pizza on one plate. I found it pretty amusing and made some light joke, then looked at the person. It was Rick! And he was without his cane. He was bald like the last time I had seen him, which I found odd. He said something to me but I didn't hear it because I was sorta shocked to see him. He smiled then extended a hand to me and we shook hands and he introduced himself to me and I did the same.
During our brief handshake I felt love, warmth, happiness as I'd never experienced them before. It filled my whole being up and it was like there was only Light inside of me and no darkness, I felt something I'd never felt before... complete. I knew that I never wanted the feeling to go away. It was so genuine and amazing there are just no words sufficient enough to describe it. And for that I'm truly sorry, if I tried to describe it I would probably find myself babbling on and on trying to get it right. So you'll just have to take my word for it.
He let go of my hand and the intense feeling of genuine love and happiness was gone just as quickly. I noticed that he was sort of glowing slightly this golden-white and it seemed to be coming from inside him. I noticed that in this glowing state he had a full head of hair and I'd never seen him so healthy or happy in my life. It was as if his physical touch allowed me to see him in his heavenly body or something for lack of a better term.
Then my dream ended and I woke up. I believe that this was not just something my mind conjured up while sleeping, I really believe that I met him then. God made the impossible possible for me and heard my prayers and saw into my heart. I did find myself sort of bitter after I woke up and after pondering it for a while I realized that it was because I missed that wonderful and intense feeling that I had when I shook Rick's hand. To have something so great and awesome fill you up like that and make you feel complete and then suddenly it's gone, it makes my soul ache for it. Don't get me wrong I'm still greatly blessed and honored to have been able to have experienced it.
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Be Blessed
Franca